On Dying

I woke up choking, feeling as if I would pass out
Can’t breath… getting dizzy… my head is spinning

Almost at a panic, I tried to sit up hoping to dislodge whatever it is that is blocking my air ways
But I continued to cough wildly and tears are starting to flow down my eyes

Groped in the dark… my companions are upstairs sleeping… they can’t hear me
I tried to drink water… I still can… there is chance I can get through this…

I groped in my bag, there is one more piece of anti-histamine… I chewed it up so I can easily absorb it and drank some more water… I am already out of breath… whizzing…

I laid down on the sofa bed… hoping to calm myself down and let the meds I took take effect

I think I must have fainted for I could not remember what happened after that…

Probably the medicine worked… cause I am still alive…

What if I had died? I guess I will never know… but thinking about it now, I guess it would not really be that bad… I think I have reached the summit and there are very few things which I have left undone… things I have always wanted to do most of it I have done, so I guess dying is not so bad after all…

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