'ma | 
01 26th, 2005| 
Yesterday was such a terrible day…
I came in to the office and started reading my mails… there were about a dozen, since I did not report for work last Monday…
I opened this mail from one of my colleagues and it contained some very nasty things said about me most of which are very trivial… well that’s it there goes the start of a good day!
Later during the already awful day, another supervisor comes up to me and says he is not changing his mind about his resignation and is even thinking of filing charges against the person whom he feels have aggravated him he then proceeded to cry in front of me and what am I supposed to do but cry with him?
When my boss arrived later in the afternoon, he sees the e-mail from that colleague and calls me and her to talk about what her problem is about me, only to realize that he had misunderstood the situation all along and felt ashamed that he had to be involved in such petty complaint my colleague lashed out against me in the first place.
So after such an emotionally draining dialogue, I had to face the other supervisors who once again started complaining about the forced ranking type of performance evaluation that my boss insisted on implementing and the supervisors hated because they will have to do the explaining to their associates. I was forced to end the meeting early because I was already pissed off and was not in a position to explain further things which they would not want to understand anyway.
So finally I decided to go home… I was relieved that at the end of the day, I could finally seek refuge and find some peace in the company of people I love… only to come home and find out he wasn’t still there, called him up twice on his cell phone that kept on ringing, called his office and be informed that he left more than an hour ago. After worrying for 30 minutes, he finally calls, only to say he was on his way home with a couple of colleagues because he thought I would still be arriving much later… what else could dampen your whole spirit at the end of a most painful and tiring day?
When he arrived, he expected me to be okay, because he is already home and since I was not speaking, he did not speak to me either and this always pisses me off. I got offended and he knows I was, but instead of acknowledging my feelings, he chooses to ignore me because he is worried that he cannot explain himself?
I know I should cut him some slack, but I guess I got tired of being always the one to explain myself. I guess after being out in the rain for most of the time, I am already numbed and cold and all I want to do is just be acknowledged of my pain and be taken in without having to explain…